Monday, April 27, 2009

Finding a lump...


I first noticed a lump in my right breast while I was taking a shower in April 2008. I went to see my doctor immediately but because I was 8 months pregnant I couldn't get a mammogram, so my doctor gave me a requisition for an ultra sound. That ultra sound came back clear. Looking back I should have demanded for further tests (my mother had just been diagnosed with cancer) but everyone was reassuring me that I was "too young" to have breast cancer and the lump was probably just some benign thing related to the changes in my breasts due to the pregnancy.
The horrible thing is that I found my lump the day before my mother had the mammogram that found her tumor (around a year ago). My mother is now finished her treatment and I am finally just being diagnosed correctly.

Diagnosis


First of all I want to say that I am fine. I have some rough and scary moments where my mind wanders to the worst possible outcome but in my heart I know that my odds are very good and I will do everything I can to make sure that I'm around for a long time.
A week ago today I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I am 33 years old and the happy mother of an eleven month old daughter. This has been a hard week. Giving birth to my baby girl last year was the beginning of the most amazing and wonderful time of my life and I feel like the best experiences of my life have just been crashed into by the worst moments of my life.
So far, I don't know much about my cancer. I know that it is an invasive ductal carcinoma but I don't know yet what my treatment will be or what my prognosis is. The not knowing is the hardest part because people that know me will tell you that I am a planner, so I feel powerless right now.
I met with my surgeon, Dr. Lorimer, today for the first time and although he hasn't got the results back from my MRI he thinks that I will most likely have chemotherapy before my surgery to remove the tumor. I should hear back from Dr. Lorimer by Friday about what they saw on the MRI. I went into the meeting today thinking that I would get some answers but instead I ended up with more questions. I was disappointed that I still don't know much.
I will be having several tests done and I will be meeting with an oncologist to discuss treatment very soon. I will let you know when I know more.